I'm leaving today on a personal journey and when I come back I'll be different. I'm going to embark on an adventure; one where I have no known expectations but I know I have so much to take away. I am going to deepen not only my practice but my own self love, my patience, my balance, my very existence and go on the ultimate spiritual and physical journey. It's 18 days out of town in the beautiful Jacumba Hot Springs and even though it's only 4 hours away, it is really outside my comfort zone, my day to day life. I enjoy meditating, love to camp, and really want to nourish my achey bones and my soul, but to do it for what seems like a long time will be a challenge. I'm used to working at my computer and having my phone pretty much 24/7. It's going to be a crazy good detox. And it's interesting to look in the mirror and see who I am now, not yet realizing how I'm going to grow emotionally, spiritually and physically over the next 3 weeks.
I'm a visual learner so as much as I am terrified, I thrive on being immersed in the teachings full time. I don't think I would excel as much in a home learning situation; it's just not how my brain works. Those who know me know I live a calculated life, based on scheduling and budgeting. Even when I come in touch with my creative brain and structuring things that way, it's often battled by a "practical" mind of structural and monetary confines.
Today I leave in a car with two people I've never met in my life, but all of us face a journey of betterment and fulfillment within ourselves. We will learn the beginnings of ancient yoga teachings as well as the physical embodiment called "asanas" but more than that we will gain mental and physical strength through movement, balance and stillness.
When I come home, I will share these teachings in a beautiful way. And I can't wait to tell you about it. Thank you for watching me grow.
As much as this is a personal journey, I'm so very grateful to have an amazing support system. I don't know where I would be if it weren't for my family's constant love and warmth. Alex, you hold me together when I am giving up, when I am overwhelmed, when I can't bother to read another work email, when I need to breath and find balance for myself. I am so grateful to have a fiancé like I do, and an uber supportive momma, brother and friends. Mom has always wished for us to go after our dreams, no matter how big or small the obstacles. Here we go...